I am a second year now. October seems so far away. I don't have much to say in this entry, I am rather at a loss.
This summer I am planning to:
get a job
teach myself flash so I can redesign my site
move out with Charlotte and Emma
And maybe even go see my dad and my sister, but this all depends on money.
It is a week till the end of term at university and everything is due in. I think I am pretty much on top of things. I have finished my Visual Studies essay which was a pain to do. It hasn't really been my best or favorite subject. Also I have got my final images for Digital Photography done. Now I have to print them at A3 and produce a portfolio with an evaluation and do the evaluation for the website as well. I am actually kind of surprised at my marks so far for web design. They are the highest marks I have ever gotten for an essay. Writing really isn't my strong point. I'm more of a practical person than an academic one. I am going to Gatecrasher this weekend and I was really aiming to have all of my work done by then, most of it is done, or at least the large bits that would take my most of the time so I am pleased. If I am also honest I thought that Gatecrasher was next weekend, and had a rather rude awakening on Sunday when I was told otherwise! Also last Sunday I went to the Life Before Death Exhibit at the Wellcome Gallery in Euston with my mom. It was an interesting exhibit with collaboration between a reporter and a photographer who spent time in a hospice in Germany interviewing terminally ill patients about how they felt about their death. Unsurprisingly, the text was very powerful. The images were very confrontational. They were close up images only showing the face in high contrast. You could make out almost every wrinkle on the older people and the details of the younger subjects were very full of sorrow. The text ranged from anger at having life taken away from them to what they were holding onto and what their families felt and hoped for them. A few subject said they felt at peace with their impending death and were able to accept it after a time. The photos were taken in the last days or months of their life and the day that died. When I spoke to one of my teachers, Carol, who had gone to see a talk about the exhibit she mentioned how she had spoken with people ranging from nurses and doctors to embalmers and bereavement councilors. I think it is interesting to note the type of people who were interested in this exhibit. Not only artists and people interested in art but people who deal with death everyday. Although everyone encounters death within their lives it is something that most people find really difficult to talk about and wish to avoid thinking about, but it is also one thing that everyone has in common with each other. I am deep and a cliché.
Sadness Originally uploaded by
LadyBinx
I took this on Monday. I was trying to do silhouettes with colored gels for my final digital photography and this came out as one of the mistakes when some white light manged to creep in. I still like it though, it is 'my favorite accident' in the words of Motion City Soundtrack. I think I am losing my eyesight though, either that or the focusing on my camera is messed up. Many of the photos were out of focus, so I am re-shooting some of the images next week. I don't think I have enough confidence in my work and I feel that because of that my photos lack something. It's like a never-ending circle. I just feel really lost at the moment, not just in my work but in everything.
I have always been awestruck by the images Nick Knight has been able to produce. There is something so captivating about his photographs I cannot quite place my finger on. He is able to use colour in such a way that, whether it is an extentsive range of bold colours, one streak of colour or a simple image with pale and desaturated colour that the colour and form are able to provoke an emotion within the viewer.
For the major project in Digital Photography we have to choose five adjectives from a list and represent the adjectives we have show. I have decided to shoot the images in silhouettes with coloured backgrounds using the form of the poses to show the emotion behind the adjectives I choose.